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hi hi.

i feel a little bit shy typing tonight.  it's been so quiet here lately.  i've been so quiet here lately.

it's not that i don't miss this space, because i do.  and it's not that i don't love this space, because i do.  oh, i do.  there are so many factors making me feel quiet lately - life, big decisions, unfinished projects, long lists, good intentions, and so much more.  there's change in our blogging neighborhood.  there's knowing that change is coming around here and not knowing exactly what that will look like when it comes.  there's trying to spend less time online.  there's how i've obviously got comfortable with fewer words.  and how, in spite of that comfort, i'm missing writing.  i also miss taking photographs and carrying my camera everywhere, and when i'm carrying my camera everywhere i miss the space to just be without the camera.  it's a lot of things.

but i miss being here.  

and so instead of staying quiet while i wait for the answers to come to me.  instead of staying quiet while i figure it all out.  instead of staying quiet, instead of waiting, instead i've decided to just be here again and let things evolve.  we'll see how it goes.

Reader Comments (23)

And I like listening to what you say when you say it. :)
April 1, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterheather smith jones
I'm always happy to see a new post from you. Your photos today are outstanding!
April 1, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterErin
I'm always glad when you post Emily. And I have similar thoughts about blogging all the time - there is never enough time for me to articulate well what I'd like to; I usually just have to leave it at good enough.
April 1, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterLecia
the clarity in these is fantastic. sometimes yellows are hard; so reflective.

I know what you mean, sometimes I wonder if twitter has ruined me for blogging. I haven't been over there as much this week, and have blogged 4x.
April 1, 2010 | Unregistered Commentermolly
Love the photos, hope you're enjoying the spring.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterRose
HELLO! great to see again around here!
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterAsiye
I know I for one will be here no matter what evolves.

I can't stop looking at these amazing photos.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterAmy
hi you! change is good.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commentererin
I totally hear you on this, em. So well put.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterrachel | buttons magee
hi em. well said. xo
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commentershari
I understand. often I feel the same way. but going with the flow is usually a good idea. look forward to seeing where it takes you!
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterangie
well... I am glad you posted. I full well understand life has its ebbs and flows... I take great delight in visiting your space and was happy to see the new post. But, I also get that life takes us to new and different places... as it goes.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterRamona
know how you feel. yup. sure do.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterlisa s
Good idea. I think of so many of these things too. Go easy. Go slow. Smile.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterDenise | Chez Danisse
glad to see you in this space. go at your own pace. lovely shots too. I *love* those darn flowers.
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterleya
hello, hello. oh, you've summed it up so well that i seriously want to go put up a post that says "what she said", and link it right here because really, you've got company. xox
April 2, 2010 | Unregistered Commentercloth.paper.string
Oh GOOD. I am a big believer in talking it out. And I have missed you.

But you're right - there IS change in our blogging neighbourhood. I've decided though, that regardless of what happens around me, I have the ultimate control of blogging on my terms. And so I continue.
April 3, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterAli
I've been feeling the same way too recently. Quiet. It was nice to read what you wrote ... comforting ....
April 3, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterJessica - Domestic PDX
Love the photos, hope you're enjoying the spring
April 4, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterBaby Bedding
oh my, those are gorgeous flowers!
April 5, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterbarbara
I LOVE your ranunculus and I love what you've said here. I feel the same. But miss you.
April 5, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterGrace
I know what you mean. I do. But know that I've missed your words and I'm glad you're back - for however long and in whatever form it may be.

April 8, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterVintage Simple
so hear this. hear it and feel it.That said... the simple loveliness of your photos and words? They're golden, and a gift that I'm glad you share.
May 19, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterstefani

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